Out of Control

Spinning out of control is a terrible feeling. It’s like hitting black ice and just hanging on for the ride. Sometimes life can feel like this. 

In my head, I know that God is in control. But it’s so much easier to “trust” God when I feel like I have some level of control. I hate feeling helpless. I hate “letting go.” As I look back over my life, I can see countless ways where God’s way was so much better than my own. I can see where my faith has grown and where I surrendered and reaped such peace and blessing. In some ways, I thought I had maybe learned this lesson and was ready to move on. But just like peeling back layers of an onion, God only gives as much as we can handle at any given time. Just as we get comfortable, He brings us to the “next level.”

Instead of being frustrated with a lack of control, perhaps the best thing is to acknowledge that I never really was in control in the first place. Nothing takes God by surprise and there’s nothing that He cannot handle. “Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.” Proverbs 3:5-6